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Moving Day

It is officially time to move on from this blog. Can't stay rooted in one place too long. You know me, right? My feet start to itch. I'll begin a new blog this month over at Wordpress. If you've enjoyed anything I've posted here, keep reading over at K, <3 U!

 

Heart

Catch Phrase(s)

Social Couture

Intellectual Currency

Three Little Mates from School

I once knew three guys

And each told three lies.

Back when I was a kid

Was far more trusting then.

Three years beyond the age

of ten.

 

Listening to them?

Cannot make that mistake again.

 

 

The Finish Line

I can see the finish line.

Feels like it keeps moving back.

Yeah.

But I can see it.

Table Ten Love

 

 

Busboy

I fear I've fallen

For the busboy at the local Italian Joint.

Every tuesday

I frequent his spot.

 

He has a kind smile.

And his eyes want to tell me a story

About back alley fights

Or luke warm beers.

 

But I could never be

With this "busboy."

Our romance could never extend

beyond the five I left on the table.

New Year New New:Finding My "Is-ness"

It has become terribly cliché to make resolutions for the approaching year. But, as cliché as it may be the resolution extends beyond tradition; it, serves to tie the loose ends from the previous year and lay a foundation for the new one.

If you've been keeping up with my life, you'll realize that 2007 was as turbulent as a flight headed for the Bermuda Triangle. And eventually I crashed. Thank God I did not burn. This year had minimal bright spots. It was peppered with death and tragedy. And I believe the saddest part for me, was 2007 is the year of "completion." Lesson learned, completion is not perfection.

I suppose you could say that many things were completed in 2007. My best friends

Happy New Years!

 graduated from college. That was far more sweet than bitter. I could not have been more proud of them than I was in that moment. My Grandma completed her life in 2007. Considering that she lived a long and full life, I should not be sad. Even if I am. I think that I am sad that her legacy could be one that is lost, more than anything else. On the other hand, there were a few lives that were lost, most of which would be considered premature.

With 2007 under 16 hours from being "in the past" it is time to focus on 2008. According to Ask the Rabbi, "Eight...is symbolic of an entity that is one step above the natural order, higher than nature and its limitations." That means that in 2008, I can go above and beyond. It can be a very powerful year for me.

Yesterday's sermon was about finding you "Is-ness." The pastor got that line from the movie "You, Me & Dupree." It really resonated with her, and I can understand why she would derive meaning and import from that one line in that painfully long movie. In essence, your "Is-ness" is your essence. It's your signature on life if you will. And in all honesty, it is going to take a year that defies nature for me to discover who I truly am.

So, to get 2008 going, I'm going to create my resolution.

I hearby resolve to:

1. Exhonerate myself for all of my wrong doings and dissapointments to myself and others.
2. Exhonerate others for any wrong doings and dissapointments to me.
3. Figure out who I am, what is meaningful to me, and what I want out of life.
4. Do things that are meaninful to me.
5. Commit to a Church. Period.
6. Become active in that church.
7. Establish a $500 scholarship to honor my Grandmother's memory.
8. Be Happier.
9. Take More Chances.
10. Live my life while it is still available.
11. Be more discplined.
12. Give more of me.
13. Save more of me.
14. Learn the power of "NO."
15. Cut those 4 jobs down to 3. Possibly 2.
16. Make more time for fun.
17. Learn to be a lady: make-up, shoes, high tea, the works...
18. Find my happy weight, and stay there.
19. Figure out what love is exactly.
20. Be open to whatever that "love" thing is.

God is Good

CRN	Subject	Course	Section	Course Title	Campus	Final Grade
31408	PSY	314	01	Intro To Learning	Purdue	A
32127	PSY	322	01	Neurosci Motiv Behavr	Purdue	A
31413	PSY	344	01	Human Sexuality	Purdue	A
33822	PSY	491B	01	Income & Acad Achvmnt	Purdue	A

 

 

Would you believe I did not have one "A" at midterms?

 

It's going to be a Merry Christmas after all!

Clutch It

I am so inspired by Clutch Magazine's Manifesto!

Considering making it my motto for 2008...

 

Clutch Manifesto

Smart is always sexy…

Do it for yourself not someone else…

Research is the key to a successful purchase…

A girl should never leave home without her compact…

Don’t be afraid to mix styles and colors…

If he’s not into you…good…his loss

Living and learning is life’s best teacher…

We dig men who recognize a mean shoe game…

Staying involved in your community is essential…

Diversity is what makes the world go round…

Don’t date losers…pass them along to your enemies…

The library is the hangout…

Appearance is important…

We live for good music and online shopping…

We lead they follow…

A Letter (to my Facebook Friends)

After an incident last night, I immediately sent a letter to some of my Facebook friends, those who have been on a roller coaster ride of faith with me.

This is not a forward or some hoax email. And since my page refreshed the first time I tried to send this to you, I know that it is important.

Since my grandmother's death, I've been really upset. Most of you know I've had periods of questioning my faith, and asking God why He seemingly turned a deaf ear to me.

Normally I spend Saturday afternoon at my aunt's house and then I head to her church later in the evening. Well I've been under the weather with the flu for the past week and had no intention of going to church today. However, my mom still had to drop something off at my aunt's house.

After spening an hour there, we were heading home and my aunt was heading to the gym. My mom pulled out the driveway first, and my aunt followed. After checking both ways my mom pulled out into the intersection. Literally milliseconds later I saw a truck grill out of the corner of my eye. But there were no head lights. I knew in my mind that we were hit.

This SUV was doing 60 MPH in the rain with no headlights turned on. But I suddenly saw a flash of bright light. It left as fast as it came. My mom didn't know anything was going on until she heard screeching tires and saw a truck pull off to the side of the road. At the angle and speed that both parties were traveling, we "should've" been struck and killed. I'd prepared myself mentally to be flung across the highway.

But God is good. And I have to believe that sudden flash of light was not my life flashing before my eyes, but God sending his angels to the rescue.

My aunt was still at the stop sign staring in disbelief. She immediately began to praise God, because she was certain that we were about to be struck and killed. She then drove over to the woman's SUV to tell her that her lights were not on. The woman was completely unaware that she was traveling with no lights on and was grateful that no one was hurt.

I'm not saying this to convert anyone, or sound like a religious nut. I just want to share my experience with my friends, and let you know how good God has been to me.

Love you all through Christ (even if you don't believe in him),
JB

Feel Me

Some days I wonder when I'll let it hurt.

When will I let myself experience my own emotions instead of turning to the comfort of numbness?